So I'm getting used to this whole blog thing, okay? I'm not consistent with it, I'm a procrastinator by nature. That with everything else going on here that's stressing me out, editing the short Ann asked me to fix and resubmit is getting pushed further and further back. It sucks, but it's what's going on.
A friend of mine was telling me about "moments" and how he doesn't regret a particular moment he had and wouldn't change a damn thing even though it may have screwed with his mind for the rest of his life. How can ONE singular moment change a person so irrevocably? I personally have changed in my life of course, I've grown, I've matured. But to change to completely in an instant... that is a concept completely foreign to me. It happens, i know it happens, but everything for me has always had a slow progression. My writing, my loves, the way I thought.
My writing has come a long way in eleven and a half years from when I first started writing The Gifted in the Spring of my Freshman year of high school. That novel alone has transcended anything I had ever planned for it. it has become a world of its own that I love to go back and reread, then look at it and go, "Well fuck, I can add more here. Shit!" My writing has gone from childish and laughable to incredible, and having someone I admire tell me she's never read anything from an unpublished writer that was as good as Torn. That floored me.
Love is something that was always a slow progression. I write about love at first sight, about not being able to help the way you feel, and soul mates. Do i believe it in? For some people, sure. For others, like myself? No. I have never experienced this before, and I honestly wish I could have. Do I believe in soul mates? YES. GOD YES. have I found mine? Possibly. he completes me, but there are holes, gaps that are emptied, and need filling. A soul mate should fill all of those empty spaces. I can find myself growing apart from him, simply because I am learning independence. I'm learning how to thrive on my own, and I'm growing stronger with each passing day. At one point in my life, he did perfectly complete me... because he is a strong alpha male type man. Now I want a romantic guy who'll be spontaneous, and woo and romance me. I want a guy who'll still after 10 years bring me flowers just because. I like getting special presents every now and then just because. I want a guy I can have fun with and laugh with, and goof around with. I want a guy who gets my imagination and free spirit. A guy who gets my tendencies to need to be alone. My husband can get all of that and be all of that, but there are some times that he just doesn't get it enough. It might seem mean to say, but it is the honest to God truth.
That's what this blog is about, the honest truth. My life as I see it and that's all there is.
I've written a poem today, I haven't written a poem in YEARS.
Here it is:
I am the rock to keep you grounded.
I am the shoulder to lean on when you cannot deal on your own.
I am the gentle voice you listen to when you need the reassurance.
I am the one who laughs at your silliness.
I am your friend.
I am the soothing voice to comfort you.
I am the warm embrace to welcome you.
I am the one that cries with you because I cannot bear to see you hurting alone.
I am the one that has your back no matter what.
I am your friend.
I am the one who keeps your darkest secrets.
I am the vote of confidence in the darkest times.
I am the smile to let you know it's going to be okay.
I am always just a phone call away.
I am your friend.
I am the loyalty you seek.
I am honesty when you need it most.
I am experience when you need advice.
I am the humor that lifts your unease.
I am your friend.
I am the one who will fight for you.
I am the one that keeps you based in reality.
I am the one that injects my own dose of insanity
I am the imagination that makes you smile
I am your friend.
I am the one who will always be there.
I am the one to count on whenever you need me.
I am the one who would drop everything to hold your hand.
I am the one who is forever.
I am your friend.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
I'm definitely playing the waiting game now.
So since my party, which I seem to have either freaked out my friends, or they just chose not to say anything... except Martha ;) LOL I'm kidding ladies, I love you all, seriously. But since then I've sent Torn off to the wonderful Ann Leveille, and now I am anxiously awaiting her review and hopefully a contract with EC. And I've read the Toys-4-Us series, which was INCREDIBLE. makes me want a Gianna of my own to match me with the proper toys!! I loved every single one of those books, and I'm totally entering to win that Kindle Fire! If only I could figure out what "other" big thing Emily likes. LOL The others were easy to figure out.... that one I'm like HUH?! LOL
Those books made me realize just how badly I want to have friends to write with like that. To throw ideas out with, and write something like that with. How much I almost wish I could bring some people into Healing Springs and have them write tag a long novels to go with Torn, it's sequel, and subsequent tag alongs I'm planning. And if Torn is published and any of the Royal House would like to add to my world, well damn I would probably let them!
They also made me realize that I DESPERATELY want to be in Vegas to celebrate Allie's birthday with her. I need to know how I can get a present to the Princess for her birthday, and don't you dare tell me I don't need to do it. I didn't need to get ya the sparkly pink scarf, but I wanted to because I count you as a friend!
I have a few shorts to write up, and finish, and some more books to plan while I wait, along with three kids, and a messy ass house to deal with while I wait for Ann, but it's driving me CRAZY wondering when I'll hear from her.
Such a busy life... and there are days, like today... where I wish i could just sink back into bed, curl up with a warm body and stay there all day.
Those books made me realize just how badly I want to have friends to write with like that. To throw ideas out with, and write something like that with. How much I almost wish I could bring some people into Healing Springs and have them write tag a long novels to go with Torn, it's sequel, and subsequent tag alongs I'm planning. And if Torn is published and any of the Royal House would like to add to my world, well damn I would probably let them!
They also made me realize that I DESPERATELY want to be in Vegas to celebrate Allie's birthday with her. I need to know how I can get a present to the Princess for her birthday, and don't you dare tell me I don't need to do it. I didn't need to get ya the sparkly pink scarf, but I wanted to because I count you as a friend!
I have a few shorts to write up, and finish, and some more books to plan while I wait, along with three kids, and a messy ass house to deal with while I wait for Ann, but it's driving me CRAZY wondering when I'll hear from her.
Such a busy life... and there are days, like today... where I wish i could just sink back into bed, curl up with a warm body and stay there all day.
Monday, October 17, 2011
My perspective of Romanticon2011
Bags were packed Thursday night. Last minute things thrown in after I got ready while I helped Makayla get ready for school as well. Joe got up at 6:45 and I continued getting ready. I said goodbye to the girls, said goodbye to him, and started my journey from Castalia to Akron. It seemed to take hours (well it did take two), but finally i saw "Akron city convention center" and I got really giddy. I missed my turn and did a few smart ass navigation through the city streets and found my way there. Sent out texts to everyone and told them I had arrived. Pulled into a parking spot and grabbed my duffel and computer bag. Weighed down in three inch wedge heels, I made my way to the front desk. Where, as I was waiting for my lovely roommate AJ Mills to answer her phone and give confirmation that I was indeed who I said I was supposed to be, I got to see the incredible Desiree Holt going to ask the clerk about something. I was kinda star struck so all I could do was wave say giggley say her name. I don't think she knew who I was at that time, but I can't blame her much lol.
I got my room key then, and completely forgot to listen for the room number. Went up, and accidentally got off the elevator at the Plaza floor. Boy am I glad I did, because as i turned the corner my WONDERFUL new Mama Regina was RIGHT THERE. She instantly knew me, just as she said she would, and I was gifted to probably one of he warmest hugs I'd ever gotten. I was then introduced to Nicole Austin and Eve Savage, who are a couple of the WILDEST and WACKIEST women I've ever met, but I now love them to death! I asked her something... my God I can't even remember what it was I asked her! But she said she'd see me later, and I went up to my room.
AJ greeted me just as warmly as Regina had and I got settled by dropping my bags onto my assigned bag and squealed a little with her over the happenings of the night before. Teased her a little bit and then we headed upstairs for me to check in and get my stuff. There I got to meet the wonderful Princess Allie Standifer, and saw Eve again. Poor Des, picked up the wrong bag and they had to travel to Cleveland airport to get the right bag for her. Regina's workshop had already started, so AJ and I browsed the freebies and got our "I got Boned at Romanticon 2011" T-shirts.
By then the workshop ended and then I followed my Mama Regina around like a puppy allowing her to work her magic to calm me before my pitch. I met Elece, and Cassandra in that time as well, as well as Sherry. Then it was time for my pitch.
Nerves dissipated THANK YOU REGINA FOR THE 50 MILLIONTH time!! I paced, called Joe, he and Lilly both wished me luck, which just about made me cry.... and then it was time. I took a deep breath and went in and introduced myself. Thank GOD i remembered how to give a proper professional handshake. My index card spiral in hand, I began my shpeil. Introduced myself a little told her the genre, how many words it was, and how many I had left to go (Once again, thank you Mama Regina!) I stammered a little because it was kinda out of order in my head, and I laughed and said "Okay... the summary of my book...." she giggled right along with me and after every sentence said some variance of "WOW!" I knew I had her hooked. and then to put the icing on the cake... "What makes my book so different from other Vampire/Werewolf/Witch triangles is there will be a happily ever after for them. The rivals are not going to ask her to choose. Also this is told in four different points of view, from the first person." I thought I had lost her. So I quickly back pedaled a little. "Now, I know that some publishers don't like that but i think how I've written it can be followed very easily as each character has their own way of narrating. They each have their own voice and i let them speak through me into their narrative. I believe that it flows very well, and I hope to have the chance to allow you to see it as well." Instantly... "I would LOVE to see it!"
I wanted to leap across the table and tackle her. Somehow i composed myself and began rambling about the two shorts i had done, and am in the process of doing to submit for the EC for men line. She was instantly drawn to that as well and requested the finished short. I wanted to SCREAM IT from the rooftops.
I rambled some more about The Gifted being a possibility for the Blush line. She loved the premise of that. and said some day it was a possibility and work on Torn for now but she was definitely interested!! I explained to her that my imagination is so great that I would be extremely prolific. She said she couldn't wait to see my short and when i had it finished my book as well. I thanked her and somehow composed myself still until I got to the doors of the room. I kicked my shoes off and RAN at Regina whom I almost lost. I thanked her over and over and squealed and jumped around, and ran down to the room and called Joe and texted Dan, and another friend of mine. Congrats were given all around, and i got ready for the workshops.
But first there was lunch with Eve, Brenna Zinn, Cerise Deland, Myla Jackson, my Mama Regina, and Elece. Allie and Des had a workshop and didn't really stick around, but I can't blame them, service and food sucked massively.
I went to the workshops then, and then wished I'd gone to the fun stuff when i heard how much fun Allie was having with 31 flavors of Sex LOL but I learned a lot in Raelene's workshops. So now i am thankful, but I"m wondering what the other 12 are from looking at the book we were given! LOL
I got ready for dinner, and got to sit with my new Mama, and Brenna Zinn, Eve, Nicole, Allie, Desiree. I was in Author heaven. I got my dinner and the WONDERFUL MAN Alex complimented me on my outfit and gave me a hug. While we were waiting for our dinner, he was whispering Spanish into both my ear and Nicole's. I think a part of me is still melted in that carpet somewhere.
I got to dance with Kory and Angelo and Alex a little. Alex then got me again when he suddenly grabbed me and stage kissed me LOL Regina and Nicole had missed it (I believe it was you two standing with me) and so he did it again. much to my bright red blush. (don't worry grandma, no he didn't ACTUALLY kiss me...) Got promised a dance from my favorite Georgio, but I couldn't snag him for myself that night. I hung out with the royal court, and got to try Chocolate Wine for the first time... my GOD that screwed with my head! LOL A friend came down and hung out with me a little while I was there near the end of the night and i ended up being awake until 4 AM....
So I had thought that my morning was going to be a late one, and good luck getting up. Not so much. I was up at 7 freaking 45 in the morning. I grumbled and rolled over to go back to sleep for another 45 minutes. Body was saying GET THE #*&( up! I think i was too excited for the day's events. I pulled on a sweat shirt and meandered down for breakfast. Sat with the royal ladies and the Princess was just leaving as I was getting there so she told me to sit in her seat. I had breakfast, and then realized i just felt like absolute crap. I think Brenna worried about me eating enough, because the lunch prior I hardly ate. I think I was simply too excited.
That day however, I was hung over. BADLY. i think actually i was still feeling the alcohol, and was considering having a bit of the tail of the dog that bit me. I didn't but rather settled for chilling out in my room, editing my short Ann requested and I sent it off. I talked to Joe and Dan, and napped a bit as well. By 4 I was showering and getting ready for the futuristic party. I got into the corset, skyped Dan got teased, talked to joe... and then almost completely passed out. I HAD to get out of it. Changed into a tank top, and headed down.
Dinner I was late to and was made to sit, I thought, by myself, but met the incredible lady, Kathy Kulig and her husband who was HILARIOUS. Got up for dinner and Alex recognized me and gave me a great big hug and said "You look sexy!" Blushed bright red, but I loved it! LOL A hot Latino telling me I looked sexy? YES PLEASE! Got back to the table, ate and talked books with Kathy, which I LOVED hearing about and the one she had figured out the ending to in the workshop that day sounded SO interesting, need to pick that up! Is it a series Kathy? Can I get a name?
I made myself a drink in my room, drank half of it, and was feeling pretty damn good by the time the fire dance rolled around. Got to talk to Jaid Black on the way out there, and I felt so freakin' privileged to have her speaking to me. I was star struck, and I swear I probably sounded stupid saying "I listened to a few radio shows, and you had me cracking up laughing. I cannot for the life of me remember the topic that day though!" *rolls eyes* SMoooooth Jordan, real smooth... lol
Then it came time for the fire dance. I screamed and yelled, and whooped. then Angelo was right there beside me with Kristin Daniels holding onto me with her coat because it was freezing, but I wasn't actually COLD lol!! And then, oh shit, he dropped the fire baton... he's coming near me.... oh SHIT the fire is between my feet! I leaped back, and at the same time felt Kristen pulling on me, my heel hit the concrete stair and down I went. BAM right against the edge of the concrete stair. I had like five seconds to register what had happened before I looked up and there was Angelo holding his hands out to me to help me up. Of course I took his help, and started laughing. he hugged me and Kristin and apologized. Of course EVERYONE around me... "Are you OKAY?!" Princess Allie said I smelled flame boiled. I did NOT get burned. Let me reiterate. Angelo did NOT burn me with it, just startled me! LOL
I did not hurt at all, and got inside, took a picture with Kristin, my FAVORITE of the ENTIRE convention.
Angelo was crowned Alpha caveman, and he totally deserved it!! I did vote for Alex, but that's ONLY and i mean ONLY because he stage kissed me LOL If that wouldn't have happened i totally would have voted Angelo. Though i was also torn between him and Georgio. *sigh* those three are my TOP three! I had such a hard time choosing. (Pun so totally not intended) he called Kristin and I up to give us a hug, and Alex started toward him with a towel for him to wipe the sweat off. I said "I don't care about the sweat! Come here and give me a hug!" I'm pretty sure I said it like right into the mic, because I heard a bunch of laughter. He then said "I'm sure you ladies are hurting so I'll give you a massage later to make up for it" i thought Well damn, OKAY!
The rest of the night went pretty smoothly, hugged Georgio after the party and let him lead me out of the ball room. I told him I loved his muscles and his accent, and I'm pretty friggin' sure I told him he could bite my neck any day LOL OMG... fricken alcohol. Georgio, I am SO SORRY if I said that to you. lol!!
I went up to Angelo then and wrapped my arm around his waist and said "So when am i getting that massage?" he laughed and told me when they got back from the bars. I asked when that'd be and he said 2:30 3. I knew I'd be up, so i told him "Cool! I'll be waiting for ya, here's my room number just in case." waited up until 3:45... he did not come find me.
Butthead! :P I was so wanting that damn massage too!
Sunday morning I needed to head home, but I got to see a few more people before I left I hugged them said my goodbyes, and left with great memories and amazing friends. Friends I hope to be able to connect with and meet up with often before the next Romanticon :)
I got my room key then, and completely forgot to listen for the room number. Went up, and accidentally got off the elevator at the Plaza floor. Boy am I glad I did, because as i turned the corner my WONDERFUL new Mama Regina was RIGHT THERE. She instantly knew me, just as she said she would, and I was gifted to probably one of he warmest hugs I'd ever gotten. I was then introduced to Nicole Austin and Eve Savage, who are a couple of the WILDEST and WACKIEST women I've ever met, but I now love them to death! I asked her something... my God I can't even remember what it was I asked her! But she said she'd see me later, and I went up to my room.
AJ greeted me just as warmly as Regina had and I got settled by dropping my bags onto my assigned bag and squealed a little with her over the happenings of the night before. Teased her a little bit and then we headed upstairs for me to check in and get my stuff. There I got to meet the wonderful Princess Allie Standifer, and saw Eve again. Poor Des, picked up the wrong bag and they had to travel to Cleveland airport to get the right bag for her. Regina's workshop had already started, so AJ and I browsed the freebies and got our "I got Boned at Romanticon 2011" T-shirts.
By then the workshop ended and then I followed my Mama Regina around like a puppy allowing her to work her magic to calm me before my pitch. I met Elece, and Cassandra in that time as well, as well as Sherry. Then it was time for my pitch.
Nerves dissipated THANK YOU REGINA FOR THE 50 MILLIONTH time!! I paced, called Joe, he and Lilly both wished me luck, which just about made me cry.... and then it was time. I took a deep breath and went in and introduced myself. Thank GOD i remembered how to give a proper professional handshake. My index card spiral in hand, I began my shpeil. Introduced myself a little told her the genre, how many words it was, and how many I had left to go (Once again, thank you Mama Regina!) I stammered a little because it was kinda out of order in my head, and I laughed and said "Okay... the summary of my book...." she giggled right along with me and after every sentence said some variance of "WOW!" I knew I had her hooked. and then to put the icing on the cake... "What makes my book so different from other Vampire/Werewolf/Witch triangles is there will be a happily ever after for them. The rivals are not going to ask her to choose. Also this is told in four different points of view, from the first person." I thought I had lost her. So I quickly back pedaled a little. "Now, I know that some publishers don't like that but i think how I've written it can be followed very easily as each character has their own way of narrating. They each have their own voice and i let them speak through me into their narrative. I believe that it flows very well, and I hope to have the chance to allow you to see it as well." Instantly... "I would LOVE to see it!"
I wanted to leap across the table and tackle her. Somehow i composed myself and began rambling about the two shorts i had done, and am in the process of doing to submit for the EC for men line. She was instantly drawn to that as well and requested the finished short. I wanted to SCREAM IT from the rooftops.
I rambled some more about The Gifted being a possibility for the Blush line. She loved the premise of that. and said some day it was a possibility and work on Torn for now but she was definitely interested!! I explained to her that my imagination is so great that I would be extremely prolific. She said she couldn't wait to see my short and when i had it finished my book as well. I thanked her and somehow composed myself still until I got to the doors of the room. I kicked my shoes off and RAN at Regina whom I almost lost. I thanked her over and over and squealed and jumped around, and ran down to the room and called Joe and texted Dan, and another friend of mine. Congrats were given all around, and i got ready for the workshops.
But first there was lunch with Eve, Brenna Zinn, Cerise Deland, Myla Jackson, my Mama Regina, and Elece. Allie and Des had a workshop and didn't really stick around, but I can't blame them, service and food sucked massively.
I went to the workshops then, and then wished I'd gone to the fun stuff when i heard how much fun Allie was having with 31 flavors of Sex LOL but I learned a lot in Raelene's workshops. So now i am thankful, but I"m wondering what the other 12 are from looking at the book we were given! LOL
I got ready for dinner, and got to sit with my new Mama, and Brenna Zinn, Eve, Nicole, Allie, Desiree. I was in Author heaven. I got my dinner and the WONDERFUL MAN Alex complimented me on my outfit and gave me a hug. While we were waiting for our dinner, he was whispering Spanish into both my ear and Nicole's. I think a part of me is still melted in that carpet somewhere.
I got to dance with Kory and Angelo and Alex a little. Alex then got me again when he suddenly grabbed me and stage kissed me LOL Regina and Nicole had missed it (I believe it was you two standing with me) and so he did it again. much to my bright red blush. (don't worry grandma, no he didn't ACTUALLY kiss me...) Got promised a dance from my favorite Georgio, but I couldn't snag him for myself that night. I hung out with the royal court, and got to try Chocolate Wine for the first time... my GOD that screwed with my head! LOL A friend came down and hung out with me a little while I was there near the end of the night and i ended up being awake until 4 AM....
So I had thought that my morning was going to be a late one, and good luck getting up. Not so much. I was up at 7 freaking 45 in the morning. I grumbled and rolled over to go back to sleep for another 45 minutes. Body was saying GET THE #*&( up! I think i was too excited for the day's events. I pulled on a sweat shirt and meandered down for breakfast. Sat with the royal ladies and the Princess was just leaving as I was getting there so she told me to sit in her seat. I had breakfast, and then realized i just felt like absolute crap. I think Brenna worried about me eating enough, because the lunch prior I hardly ate. I think I was simply too excited.
That day however, I was hung over. BADLY. i think actually i was still feeling the alcohol, and was considering having a bit of the tail of the dog that bit me. I didn't but rather settled for chilling out in my room, editing my short Ann requested and I sent it off. I talked to Joe and Dan, and napped a bit as well. By 4 I was showering and getting ready for the futuristic party. I got into the corset, skyped Dan got teased, talked to joe... and then almost completely passed out. I HAD to get out of it. Changed into a tank top, and headed down.
Dinner I was late to and was made to sit, I thought, by myself, but met the incredible lady, Kathy Kulig and her husband who was HILARIOUS. Got up for dinner and Alex recognized me and gave me a great big hug and said "You look sexy!" Blushed bright red, but I loved it! LOL A hot Latino telling me I looked sexy? YES PLEASE! Got back to the table, ate and talked books with Kathy, which I LOVED hearing about and the one she had figured out the ending to in the workshop that day sounded SO interesting, need to pick that up! Is it a series Kathy? Can I get a name?
I made myself a drink in my room, drank half of it, and was feeling pretty damn good by the time the fire dance rolled around. Got to talk to Jaid Black on the way out there, and I felt so freakin' privileged to have her speaking to me. I was star struck, and I swear I probably sounded stupid saying "I listened to a few radio shows, and you had me cracking up laughing. I cannot for the life of me remember the topic that day though!" *rolls eyes* SMoooooth Jordan, real smooth... lol
Then it came time for the fire dance. I screamed and yelled, and whooped. then Angelo was right there beside me with Kristin Daniels holding onto me with her coat because it was freezing, but I wasn't actually COLD lol!! And then, oh shit, he dropped the fire baton... he's coming near me.... oh SHIT the fire is between my feet! I leaped back, and at the same time felt Kristen pulling on me, my heel hit the concrete stair and down I went. BAM right against the edge of the concrete stair. I had like five seconds to register what had happened before I looked up and there was Angelo holding his hands out to me to help me up. Of course I took his help, and started laughing. he hugged me and Kristin and apologized. Of course EVERYONE around me... "Are you OKAY?!" Princess Allie said I smelled flame boiled. I did NOT get burned. Let me reiterate. Angelo did NOT burn me with it, just startled me! LOL
I did not hurt at all, and got inside, took a picture with Kristin, my FAVORITE of the ENTIRE convention.
Angelo was crowned Alpha caveman, and he totally deserved it!! I did vote for Alex, but that's ONLY and i mean ONLY because he stage kissed me LOL If that wouldn't have happened i totally would have voted Angelo. Though i was also torn between him and Georgio. *sigh* those three are my TOP three! I had such a hard time choosing. (Pun so totally not intended) he called Kristin and I up to give us a hug, and Alex started toward him with a towel for him to wipe the sweat off. I said "I don't care about the sweat! Come here and give me a hug!" I'm pretty sure I said it like right into the mic, because I heard a bunch of laughter. He then said "I'm sure you ladies are hurting so I'll give you a massage later to make up for it" i thought Well damn, OKAY!
The rest of the night went pretty smoothly, hugged Georgio after the party and let him lead me out of the ball room. I told him I loved his muscles and his accent, and I'm pretty friggin' sure I told him he could bite my neck any day LOL OMG... fricken alcohol. Georgio, I am SO SORRY if I said that to you. lol!!
I went up to Angelo then and wrapped my arm around his waist and said "So when am i getting that massage?" he laughed and told me when they got back from the bars. I asked when that'd be and he said 2:30 3. I knew I'd be up, so i told him "Cool! I'll be waiting for ya, here's my room number just in case." waited up until 3:45... he did not come find me.
Butthead! :P I was so wanting that damn massage too!
Sunday morning I needed to head home, but I got to see a few more people before I left I hugged them said my goodbyes, and left with great memories and amazing friends. Friends I hope to be able to connect with and meet up with often before the next Romanticon :)
How did this happen? Let me tell you...
Never in my life did I imagine that I would write erotic romance. Never. I had began writing at fifteen, and back then the writing consisted of fanfiction that was horrible as hell. The first "book" i ever wrote was basically just that. Then it took on a life of it's own. It's own universe evolved, grew, and said 'Hey guess what? I'm bigger then you think.'. And then it demanded to be written. 11 painstaking years later, it's still growing and being written. I finished the book once, but there's still something missing. I plan out three or four more chapters and go, well shit. Really? Okay... plan a split of the first book into two.
It was during a slight break from that that I decided to do a little surfing for some more books to read. Not that I didn't have enough already, but there was a publisher that was close to me, and I wanted to support a local business. That was when I saw the "Romanticon 2011" banner on the Ellora's Cave website. I talked with my husband and listed the benefits of going, oh yeah, and I could also pitch a story to them. There was only one problem, they're an erotica publisher, and the only sex I ever wrote was the kind you would find in a Julie Garwood novel. It was a new and exciting challenge. One I was definitely up for.
The one story I had counted on turning from a fanfiction into a serious novel had been burning a hole in my brain for the last year. It demanded to be told, only who would want a story of a vampire/werewolf/witch love triangle where all three participants would actually learn to accept each other and live happily ever after? As horrible as it may seem I thought, this is a very adult story. There will and must be sex involved, and the story line is just far enough fetched that an erotica publisher might just love it.
And the idea was born. Immediately I talked my husband into taking time off to allow me to attend the convention for one night only. Enough to allow me to go pitch my story, enjoy one party and come home the next day. All for the grand total of $275 dollars. I started planning the book, developing the story lines further from the original fiction I'd started writing, which only took me up to the end of the second act. How did I want this book to end? (Well that's not something I'm going to divulge thank you very much)
During the writing process the muse eluded me, however two Healing Springs inhabitants called out to me to tell their tale. I thought, well make this into a series of what they call "Quickies" and i should be golden. Wrote out my first short, printed it off,and handed it over to my husband. I'm surprised he didn't laugh in my face. I'm certain any editor would have. Not once did I say even the word "Erection" or "Dick" Let alone "cock" or "pussy" Those words?! WHAT?! No, I can't hardly SAY those words let alone write them in something someone's going to READ!
And then I picked up my Cheyanne McCray book, "Forbidden Magic" and reread the sex scenes in there. Well damn it. Those words all over the place. Research! That's it, gimme research! Went to Ellora's cave website, after joining a couple of message boards, and Read Allie Standifer's "Enticing Emma" A book in her club botticelli series. I freaking loved it, and the way she wrote was raw, and real and her women weren't these petite little things that had no curves, they were REAL! (come to find out as real and as awesome as the woman herself, but that is a story for another time) I read Nicole Austin's "Erotique" and a few Desiree Holt books. How i ever looked that woman in the eyes after reading those... beyond me! Then I realized. I CAN do this. I went back, edited the first short I'd ever written, and viola, an erotic writer was born.
My fingers then flew across the keyboard as i began to write "Torn", and even though my brain demanded more reading, i denied it in favor of pouring what I wanted to read into what I wrote. The date for Romanticon drew closer, and the friends I felt I was making on the message boards grew, soon into the largest group of women I've ever had wanting to spend time hanging out with me before, and I felt freaking awesome. The book wouldn't be finished, but "not to worry" many of the wonderful established authors told me. I did not have it close to finished when i went and pitched my book, but that did not stop the editor from asking for the manuscript when it was done.
I may not be published, YET, but soon I will be, and then I've got a feeling the (mis) adventure really begins!
It was during a slight break from that that I decided to do a little surfing for some more books to read. Not that I didn't have enough already, but there was a publisher that was close to me, and I wanted to support a local business. That was when I saw the "Romanticon 2011" banner on the Ellora's Cave website. I talked with my husband and listed the benefits of going, oh yeah, and I could also pitch a story to them. There was only one problem, they're an erotica publisher, and the only sex I ever wrote was the kind you would find in a Julie Garwood novel. It was a new and exciting challenge. One I was definitely up for.
The one story I had counted on turning from a fanfiction into a serious novel had been burning a hole in my brain for the last year. It demanded to be told, only who would want a story of a vampire/werewolf/witch love triangle where all three participants would actually learn to accept each other and live happily ever after? As horrible as it may seem I thought, this is a very adult story. There will and must be sex involved, and the story line is just far enough fetched that an erotica publisher might just love it.
And the idea was born. Immediately I talked my husband into taking time off to allow me to attend the convention for one night only. Enough to allow me to go pitch my story, enjoy one party and come home the next day. All for the grand total of $275 dollars. I started planning the book, developing the story lines further from the original fiction I'd started writing, which only took me up to the end of the second act. How did I want this book to end? (Well that's not something I'm going to divulge thank you very much)
During the writing process the muse eluded me, however two Healing Springs inhabitants called out to me to tell their tale. I thought, well make this into a series of what they call "Quickies" and i should be golden. Wrote out my first short, printed it off,and handed it over to my husband. I'm surprised he didn't laugh in my face. I'm certain any editor would have. Not once did I say even the word "Erection" or "Dick" Let alone "cock" or "pussy" Those words?! WHAT?! No, I can't hardly SAY those words let alone write them in something someone's going to READ!
And then I picked up my Cheyanne McCray book, "Forbidden Magic" and reread the sex scenes in there. Well damn it. Those words all over the place. Research! That's it, gimme research! Went to Ellora's cave website, after joining a couple of message boards, and Read Allie Standifer's "Enticing Emma" A book in her club botticelli series. I freaking loved it, and the way she wrote was raw, and real and her women weren't these petite little things that had no curves, they were REAL! (come to find out as real and as awesome as the woman herself, but that is a story for another time) I read Nicole Austin's "Erotique" and a few Desiree Holt books. How i ever looked that woman in the eyes after reading those... beyond me! Then I realized. I CAN do this. I went back, edited the first short I'd ever written, and viola, an erotic writer was born.
My fingers then flew across the keyboard as i began to write "Torn", and even though my brain demanded more reading, i denied it in favor of pouring what I wanted to read into what I wrote. The date for Romanticon drew closer, and the friends I felt I was making on the message boards grew, soon into the largest group of women I've ever had wanting to spend time hanging out with me before, and I felt freaking awesome. The book wouldn't be finished, but "not to worry" many of the wonderful established authors told me. I did not have it close to finished when i went and pitched my book, but that did not stop the editor from asking for the manuscript when it was done.
I may not be published, YET, but soon I will be, and then I've got a feeling the (mis) adventure really begins!
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